Thursday, October 22, 2009

Hi everyone,

I have been MIA for quite sometime and I have missed blogging. I usually don't put down depressing things in my blog but I have had one heck of a 6 weeks. First, my second oldest son who suffers from severe depression, bi polar and a psychosis has had a really tough summer and therefore has made our families summer equally as rough. I have called 911 on him 5 times since May for many reasons, mainly because he gets very violent. One month ago he took a knife to his arm and he was once again hospitalized and then 2 days ago he swallowed a mouthful of his meds (or so we thought) he is not in a good way and I am faced with many decision concerning him and my families safety. I love him dearly but the stress we live under is more then I can handle and I believe I have to make a very hard call and send him to a group home. I do this with a very heavy heart but I just can't handle anymore of the outburst and fearing for my own life or worrying he will take his.

Needless to say my creativety has all but left me and I wish I could somehow get it back. I did so a page awhile back but my scanner wouldn't work and then my computer crashed. Now my computer is working again so I will try to reload my scanner and see if I can finally get my page up. Believe it or not I didn't use Stampin Up on my page...LOL..

Anyway I just wanted you all to know that life just got very crazy and I am still around.